In honour of Joni's Waltz

Well I have not blogged for ages, I have enjoyed reading other friends blogs and often thought maybe I should blog again, but sometimes life is so busy and time whizzes by so sat writing a blog has not been at the top of my list of priorites. However I have discovered that when you take the time to read others blogs, it can often leave you inspired and encouraged. There is something about sharing your life with others that somehow connects us, we can realise that we are not alone, sometimes we can relate to what we read.

Well I have been having in truth a bit of a naff time of late, sometimes in those moments you either want to scream out 'is anybody listening!' or the opposite, hide away in silence and hope the moment passes soon without making too much of a fuss!

My doctors words recently were a stark reminder of the reality I face every day 'You know this isn't going to go away'. It was that look she gave me as she said it, she was trying to remind me that 'incurable' means 'incurable'. The trouble is that however real that word may be, it is our natural instinct to fight against it, and often rightly so, and especially when one has a faith and belief in a God that heals. Doesn't my bible say that 'Nothing is impossible!' Is the doctor therefore wrong? No not in the sense of my mortal frame as it is right now, but the thing I have that someone else in the same condition may not have, is an eternal hope, that my mortality is simply temporary and one day I will have a new free painfree body. But I'm not ready to get that body yet, as much as the thought of it stirs a yearning and a longing deep within in anticipation of that day.

I have though a lot about my physical ailment and healing over the years. Its one of those BIG questions isn't it, why do some people experience divine healing, but others do not. 

With my recent blip in health again resulting in incessant pain, lack of sleep and feeling pretty much drained, I have started to read a book by Joni Eareckson Tada called 'Heaven, what will it be like?', if there is anyone who I want to hear her thoughts on Heaven and suffering, it is her who after a lifetime in a wheelchair gives such an amazing insight into exactly the same dilemma I have faced, that healing is not your personal experience, despite your faith in God who heals.

I'm so glad I have picked up this book, for those of my friends and family who know me well may well have heard my insights on this very subject as I have been exploring my thoughts on 'Healing, Suffering and Mortality', the now in the context of the eternal that is to come.

Joni's Waltz is an amazing song that has inspired me and affirmed to me that God is in my journey, all the way, even in the suffering and the pain, He has a plan for my life:

Joni's Waltz (by Nancy Honeytree)

Though I spend my mortal lifetime in this chair,

I refuse to waste it living in despair.
And though others may receive
Gifts of healing, I believe
That He has given me a gift beyond compare....

For heaven is nearer to me,
And at times it is all I can see.
Sweet music I hear
Coming down to my ear;
And I know that it's playing for me.

For I am Christ the Savior's own bride,
And redeemed I shall stand by His side.
He will say, "Shall we dance?"
And our endless romance
Will be worth all the tears I have cried.

I rejoice with him whose pain my Savior heals.
And I weep with him who still his anguish feels.
But earthly joys and earthly tears,
Are confined to earthly years.
And a greater good the Word of God reveals.

In this life we have a cross that we must bear;
A tiny part of Jesus' death that we can share.
And one day we'll lay it down,
For He has promised us a crown,
To which our suffering can never be compared.

 

 

Well this sums it up quite well really

 

God Bless